Thursday, September 25, 2008

My Claim to Fame

So, at this moment, if you're feeling sad and lonely, and you're sitting in the dark somewhere with just the Internet to keep you company, and you go to google at your wits' end, wondering just how you're going to make it another day, and you type "How to Live Alone" into the search engine, hoping against hope that someone, anyone, out there in cyberspace will help you muddle though your loneliness, down there at number four on the list of results is this blog. It's me, reaching out to you, one solitary figure in the dark to another, saying, "It's OK. We can do this."

Of course, this cracks me up, because it seems to me most days that I'm only about half a step away from typing just those words into google myself, and who's going to help me? Myself?

For some context, I've been stood up by the same guy two nights in a row. Well, not really "stood up", but canceled on at the last minute. The reasons sound valid. One of them was a double-booking problem, which I, of all people, should understand. The other was illness. And I don't really care that much, because I don't know the guy well enough to care, but here's the deal: I don't have time to get to know him, especially if, when I make the time, he cancels. I am working an incredible number of hours at school, and I'm still behind. I'm robbing my sleep bank in order to pay my lesson planning creditors. It's nearly 8:00, I haven't had dinner, I don't know what I'm teaching tomorrow in either of my two classes, and I have to get up and go to work in nine hours.

How to Live Alone? How about How to Eat, Sleep, and Make Time for Friends and Romantic Interests (Even Flaky Ones) All While Getting Your Lessons Done Before School Starts?

Excuse me, I have some googling to do. I just hope I'm not on the first page this time, because I happen to know that I'm not much help.

2 comments:

OneN said...

You really need to get more comfortable flying by the seat of your pants. I think you think about things too much...like your good friend with all the N's...must be a math teacher thing. Maybe I could get my Calc teachers notes from high school...oh wait, I bet he's still using them 21 years later, and a little more yellow. Don't let your teaching notes fade to yellow, find a way to keep it fresh. And as for the boy...just know that when it is right, you make the time, just ask the one with all the Ns, somehow we make the time.

Alex said...

Oh, don't worry. My teaching notes aren't yellow, because I just wrote them this morning.

Thanks for the advice, though. I'm sure you're right about the time with the right person. If there is a right person, that is.